End Of the Week Rant

A rant to shed some light (no spellcheck, no revision)



People will screw you over. Even the people who you think care about you. People will let you down. They are never 100% reliable or loyal. Be it friends, family, girlfriends, boyfriends, band members, pets, doctors, etc. You cannot rely on anyone except God. You could spend 50 years with someone and they could be gone tomorrow. Who knows why or where they went. God is the only constant. I could be pissed about what has happened to me in my life forever but it won't help anything. I could write out a big list of the people who have screwed me over in my whole life and... no, I take that back. I could give you a giant list of the people who have screwed me over since the beginning of 2009 and hold onto those bad memories forever. But that will not help me. It wont make me grow or continue to keep a kind soul. It will only make me bitter and miserable. I have been severely screwed (recently I may add). But you have been screwed too. And probably by someone you thought would never hurt you. But you have to forgive. You have to or it will consume you. Your whole life will be based on that hidden revenge. If we all walked around holding grudges forever we wouldn't have family, friends or anyone. We would keep everyone at a distance and that's not good. It is not good at all. It's lonely living like that. You have to let go. Be thankful for what bad things haven't happened to you. Be thankful for the things you do have. You might not notice right now but try to look at the good things. Its hard at first but if you try, you will notice. When life knocks you down, don't blame God. God doesn't control people's actions. Everyone is free to do whatever they want, whenever they want. Even if it's pure evil or selfishness. Pain is out there. Its all over. But so is love. If your not looking for love, you'll miss it. Instead of running from God, run towards him. If you look for him, you will find him. He is there. He wants you. I don't know what my future holds. I wish I did. But I do know that if I hold onto the pain and bitterness... It will kill me. And you know what, it doesn't matter how bad someone or something screws you over. It doesn't matter. Even if you think that person deserves the worst of the worst, you have to forgive them and let go of that hate. God is doing good things in my life. He is closing doors and opening new ones. I have been pursuing him more in the past two months than I ever have. And it's good. I have been letting go of the pain. It still creeps up and attacks but its becoming less frequent and less painful. I wont forget but I will forgive. Everyone is good and kind until proven otherwise. If you discover they aren't, you should continue to love them but keep your distance. There is no need to hate or single them out. Just keep your distance. Be cautious. Take care of yourself. Love everyone. Even if they don't deserve it. This is how things are supposed to work. God created us to love. God created us to be around people. God created you to be loving, kind and to care about people. Its only when we stray away that we hurt people and ourselves. I am not a religious nut. Im just telling it like it is. Telling the truth. And the truth can hurt. Its hard to swallow at first. But its still the TRUTH. This is a call out. A call out to everyone who feels hurt or screwed over. I have felt that way too. But I have discovered that God will free you. Your soul needs freedom and God has that for all of us. This is a call out for everyone to try to be more kind. To show more love. To be more friendly. To understand that we are all experiencing hurt. Put aside your fear, anger and hate let God take its place. Love is good and God is love.