Optimism

Right now I feel more in the dark about the past few years than I have ever felt. It all seems so mysterious. I thought I knew what was going on. I thought I knew how certain people felt about me, how they felt about themselves and about their own personal goals. But right now... now I feel like its one giant mystery. It could take me years to decipher what it all meant and who was telling the truth. Or it could take me one moment. It all depends if I decide to analyze it. It is all in the past though. Maybe If I figure some things out it will better prepare me for the future. I'm not sure at this point.

I also feel like a true individual again. When you go through life with another person for a period of time... your thoughts and ideas blend together. You think the same. You go to the same places. You eat the same food. You socialize with the same people. But recently I have started to do "Drew" things again. So far it hasn't been bad. But it hasn't been amazing either. In due time it will become very precious to me. It was before. And it will be again. I have found myself turning my phone off for days on end to give myself breathing room. I couldn't have done that awhile ago. Its nice. I need "Me" time. And "Me" time has been evolving into time with God. Its good stuff. I wouldn't trade it for the world.

I wonder what the consequences will be of putting all my thoughts and experiences into a blog for everyone to read? I guess Im not too concerned. I have nothing to hide. I hope that anyone who stumbles across it will find some insight or at least an interesting story or poem to make fun of. Its my way of expressing myself. Its my way of telling the world my story. It seems like a good portion of people like to talk about themselves. No one really seems to ask me any deep questions. Its all small talk or surface stuff. "Whats new?" or "How's school?". Those are not deep questions. I like deep questions. So instead of locating someone who finds me extremely interesting, I will blog about everything I do, see and feel. And they can come and go as the please. This is not an attack on anyone. But here is a word of advice... ask better questions. Be more interested in other people. Open your mind and listen to someone else's story. I do it all day and I enjoy it immensely. That's why I have a blog. To release it all. I like people and I want to know them. Do you?

Goodnight.