Lists (Because I'm Bored)

Books that I have read since May:

01. Velvet Elvis - Rob Bell
02. Sex God - Rob Bell
03. Sex Is Not the Problem (Lust Is) - Joshua Harris
04. Welcome To the Revolution - Brian Tome
05. Kitchen Confidential - Anthony Bourdain
06. the Ragamuffin Gospel - Brennan Manning
07. Searching For God Knows What - Donald Miller
08. Soul Cravings - Erwin McManus



Books of the Bible I have read and re-read this summer:

01. Matthew
02. John
03. Ecclesiastes
04. Revelation
05. Romans
06. Genesis



Movies I have seen in theaters this summer:

01. the Hangover
02. UP
03. Star Trek
04. X-Men Origins: Wolverine
05. Bruno
06. Moon
07. Public Enemies
08. Harry Potter
09. Ponyo
10. the Goods: Live Hard, Sell Hard


Albums that I have discovered and have come to love this summer:

01. Artists & Authors - Beauty In Everything
02. Bonobo - Live Sessions EP
03. the Grouch & Eligh - Say G&E
04. L.A. Symphony - Composition #1
05. MGMT - Time To Pretend EP
06. Miles Benjamin Anthony Robinson - self titled
07. Ohmega Watts - the Find
08. Ohmega Watts - Watts Happening
09. Paper Route - Absence
10. Ray LaMontagne - Gossip In the Grain
11. Tanya Morgan - Brooklynati
12. White Lies - To Lose My Life

Daryl Palumbo

"This is a new garden over old flowers. And old makes the old jokes take on the feel of the lore. And new lips a cradled sense of humor, so don't waste wishes on him. Wish that one day they'd figure out how to shrink stars and I could keep one in my bedroom. And wish that me and her grow old together. And wish that in my next life I come back as a tiger. These are fun wishes. In about seven minutes you can start. 'Til then, you'll just listen to the radio from seat's edge. As if then it's the look on your face. As if. As if then you'll matter... and then I can't wait."

Soul

I keep putting myself through hell for no apparent reason. Long days and late nights of misery. And it is literally killing me. Chopping off chunks of my soul. It has slowed down since I was younger but it needs to stop completely. It is in someway denying God. Telling him that I have found something better. But the truth is... I haven't found something better. God is best thing we all have. Nothing is higher or more important than him. Nothing is greater than God's love for us. And I have prayed for this to pass. I have prayed for divine intervention. I asked and I received.

Recently, right before I committed suicide of the soul, an angel came to my home and saved me. We discussed music, drugs, siblings and friendships while enjoying some root beer and waffles. We laughed and spoke of the great pleasures of life. She saved me. She saved me from taking an axe to the soul. God sent her. Right before I gave up... he showed me mercy.

My soul is worth saving. Your soul is worth saving. God wants to save us. He wants to water our souls like flowers. You and I are walking around craving something. We all long for something. We usually think its a car or a significant other but really our souls are crying out for God. We are thirsty. And if we deny ourselves the love God has for us, we dry up. We wither way like a dead flower. We become cold hearted and unhappy. We lose sight of what's real.

If your thirsty, ask for some water. Ask God for help. He will always come through. He provides. He sends angels. He sent me an angel with a watering can.

Fractals

What happened to my love
It disappeared
I can't get it back
But if I could
I'd give it to you again

Optimism

Right now I feel more in the dark about the past few years than I have ever felt. It all seems so mysterious. I thought I knew what was going on. I thought I knew how certain people felt about me, how they felt about themselves and about their own personal goals. But right now... now I feel like its one giant mystery. It could take me years to decipher what it all meant and who was telling the truth. Or it could take me one moment. It all depends if I decide to analyze it. It is all in the past though. Maybe If I figure some things out it will better prepare me for the future. I'm not sure at this point.

I also feel like a true individual again. When you go through life with another person for a period of time... your thoughts and ideas blend together. You think the same. You go to the same places. You eat the same food. You socialize with the same people. But recently I have started to do "Drew" things again. So far it hasn't been bad. But it hasn't been amazing either. In due time it will become very precious to me. It was before. And it will be again. I have found myself turning my phone off for days on end to give myself breathing room. I couldn't have done that awhile ago. Its nice. I need "Me" time. And "Me" time has been evolving into time with God. Its good stuff. I wouldn't trade it for the world.

I wonder what the consequences will be of putting all my thoughts and experiences into a blog for everyone to read? I guess Im not too concerned. I have nothing to hide. I hope that anyone who stumbles across it will find some insight or at least an interesting story or poem to make fun of. Its my way of expressing myself. Its my way of telling the world my story. It seems like a good portion of people like to talk about themselves. No one really seems to ask me any deep questions. Its all small talk or surface stuff. "Whats new?" or "How's school?". Those are not deep questions. I like deep questions. So instead of locating someone who finds me extremely interesting, I will blog about everything I do, see and feel. And they can come and go as the please. This is not an attack on anyone. But here is a word of advice... ask better questions. Be more interested in other people. Open your mind and listen to someone else's story. I do it all day and I enjoy it immensely. That's why I have a blog. To release it all. I like people and I want to know them. Do you?

Goodnight.